In two days it will be the beginning of a life changing journey back to an even healthier lifestyle than I’ve been living for the past year. Am I excited? Nope. Are you kidding…who can be excited about doing something totally unnatural, well except homosexuals, they are excited every time they have sex unnaturally. That’s beside the point though.
Seriously, two days until this life change will begin and I’m feeling a little bit anxious about it. What if I fail? What if I can’t keep my commitment? What if this is a New Years Resolution that is broken by the end of January….I have to be honest and say that these wicked thoughts run through my mind.
I know what I’m setting out to do is not normal for me at all. Which is why I’m fat. And if it’s anything I have going for me it’s that I don’t look what I weigh. All that said, I weigh too much and that will change.
So my plan, like I said before is to write here to be accountable and to monitor my thoughts. Like today for example, I had a breakfast burrito from Carls Jr., a mandrin orange salad from Wendy’s for dinner and some bread. And that was it.
But I haven’t exercised, and that’s what I need to do. So I will.
And as I was getting ready this morning I had a very interesting thought about silent struggles that people endure. Everyone has a struggle they do not talk about. I do not care who it is, everyone has their own private world they live in and no one else is allowed to go there.
I think that’s why so many people get in trouble, especially with the law. And really the truth is that no one knows us like God. And my heart is to want to please Him above all else.
The good thing is that I do not feel condemned by the Lord. I genuinely feel loved by Him. It’s myself I don’t love like I should at times. But the body the Lord has given me is the temple of His Holy Spirit – God in other words. So God resides within me (and not in a new age way either)
Anyway, that is a new truth I’m working on getting deeper into my heart and walk with the Lord. I do not understand how God can live in me. But I do know that because He has given me the Holy Spirit, I see things spiritually that the spiritually dead cannot see. Therein lies the mystery.
Until later, your blog friend,
Smiley
